Here’s the thing
I’ve been in this bloggy slump for a few months, and I’ve not been a very good blog friend to many of you. Remember when I read your blogs every day? I bet you do, and I miss having more time to keep up with you.
But I’ve realized over the last few months that I have a tendency to use my computer too much. For instance, I wake in the morning and can immediately think of a reason to check the news, the weather, causes for leg twitches, how tall Tom Cruise is, etc, etc. etc. Some doctors would call me an addict. I seriously cannot go an entire day without checking my email or blog. And maybe that’s not a bad thing, but I haven’t always been that way. And I never realized it but perhaps I let it distract me too much. I rely on it a little too much.
Jeremy said something to me the other day that got me feeling kind of bad. He’s said it before now, but the way he said it this time kind of made me mooshy…
“Maybe if I painted a keyboard on my chest, I could get as much attention from you as that laptop…”
Ugh. Oh. My heart! I’d NEVER want anyone to feel neglected in my family! And as many times a I’ve tried to use the computer “in moderation”, I somehow tend to use it excessively even when I don’t think I am. And that would probably be alright if Jeremy liked computers or games or television more than he does. But he likes me more. And that’s something special.
The other night Jeremy bet me that Tom Cruise is taller than 5′9 and I insisted he was a bit shorter because I had read it somewhere on the internet somewhere. So, I looked it up on the internet to prove him wrong. And sure enough, he’s like 5′7 or something. After I laughed at Jeremy and flexed my muscles for being right (I usually am), I closed the top of my laptop. I then decided I wanted to open it back up and check to see if a payment went through in my bank account. I opened the lid… Nothing. No lights, no sounds, nothing. It was DEAD!
My computer died again! And I’m sort of happy about it because maybe I can recondition myself to need it less if I just don’t fix it for awhile. Or maybe it’s D-E-A-D and that means I’ll need a new computer. And I’m not going to buy a new computer! No. And would that be all that awful?
So, I don’t want to be hasty and say that I’m done with this blog. But I might be. And I don’t want to be done with y’all because I loves ya! So, I just wanted to let you know what’s going on, why I’ll be visiting less & writing less & such for awhile. I’ll miss you, your loyalty, your friendship. And that’s why I can’t commit to never being on the computer again, just less of a junkie about it. I LOVE my blog. So, if you can stand it, I just need a bit more time to figure out what’s going to happen.
Mainly I have a vacation coming up and a few other terrible expenses looming over me, so the cost of a new computer is just not a priority.
I’ll post again to let you know what happened in the ultrasound on the 1st. Until then, hugs & wish me an easy trip through internet rehab and recovery! I’ve got the shakes and twitches already. 
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