So far so good
I had an OB appointment yesterday. It was pretty tiring just getting up, getting ready, getting there, waiting, waiting, talking with doc, doing a pap (ughh), and then finally leaving. I was OVER IT by the time I got home. I was crampy and edgy.
There was a perfect little heartbeat (which I already knew because I have a doppler at home) and the doc thinks things might be alright. But he isnt sugar coating anything. He says he sees more than half of women finishing a full term healthy pregnancy with these hematomas, but he has also seen some losses. It’s a waiting game.
You know, I wish it could just be a normal prengancy. Geez. I can’t imagine how awesome it would be to have one flipping pregnancy that I didn’t worry myself sick and chissel 5 years off of the end of my life span over. The doctor started talking about a woman’s instict this or that and I said, “Well, maybe SOME women have instinct and intuition. But I’ve lost touch with that after 8 miscarriages.”
I was watching this video of this gal on Youtube who is on bedrest from a hematoma and she’s trusting in that “positive thinking” is all it’s going to take. Huh? Oh, that’s the secret? Oh, ok. Good to know. Let me just turn that “Positive Thinking” switch on and BAM, it’s just all going to be alright. Ok. I did it. I’m all positive and shit now. See? Lalalallalallllllaaaaa. I’m soooo P-o-s-i-t-i-v-e! Wish I would have know about the “positive thinking” thing 8 LOSSES AGO! But then I’d have 12 babies. And that would be a little crazy, wouldn’t it?
I sound a bit bitter, don’t I? I’m not really. I’m just a little flustered right now. I’ve had cramps since yesterday and I’m just really bummed because I don’t have sonogram sight so I could look in there and see this hematoma. Maybe even put a bit of peroxide, a salve, a bandaid, a kiss on that mean sucker. Something. I guess the bedrest is the only something I can do right now. Quit whinin’ Steph and BE POSITIVE.
Now on to happier things… I have an ultrasound scheduled for the 16th. And I’ll be like 16 weeks! Know what that means? Might get to see whether this little fella is carrying a “peanut” or a “jar”. Something to look forward to!! Yahoooo.
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Did you get my comment where I told you I ws in bed rest for 5 month (the last month I was hospitalized) because of an hematoma, my daughter was born at 7 months but she was fine. it will go faster than you know it but it’s worth it even if some days it seems impossible to just lay down.
Yeah, I read that comment, that’s amazing Sissi! Did yours bleed the whole time? Did it cause you discomfort? Mine really was feeling like it was healing until the doc did the exam yesterday and now I’m just not well. I’m hurting. I don’t know why– it almost feels like a pinch or something inside my womb. I just hope it gets better cause it makes this more scary than it already was. Thanks for sharing your story, it does help to know that you two made it through– your daughter is so beautiful too.
Yes I bled the whole time, for 5 straight months!!!
I was cramping the whole time too, you can say my labor lasted 5 months, because I was contracting everyday but in a small scale not like the contraction when you deliver, but the sum of these small daily contractions opened my cervix enough without me knowing it.
Just like you, when I had an exam or had to go somewhere, I always felt worst, tired and cramping a lot. Always with a discomfort, like I had something in my womb, my stomach was always rock hard even when I was showing or later in the pregnancy, my belly never felt like a cushion but more like a stone. I could not walk straight because it was “pinching” too much, I looked hunchbacked.
I had to rest without getting up to feel better.
I was hospitalized at 6 months for early labor and what caused it was my restlessness, I thought I was doing better, I was bleeding less, so I met my friends for a day of shopping, well, next day I was bleeding like a fountain and started to contract a lot, at the hospital they manage to stop this early labor, I was put in strict bed rest, not even allowed to get up and go pee, I had to do it in a container next to my bed, I had a bunch of IV and shots to open the baby’s lung in case she would come out before 32 weeks.
Everyday I had the monitoring on, and one evening at 7pm I felt the urge to push, I called the nurse, she checked my uterus, I was fully dilated, 10 minutes later my daughter was born (breeched).
Well, I don’t mean to write a post on your blog but I just want to tell you how important it is for the sake of your pregnancy to JUST stay in bed, don’t move, just consider yourself as an incubator, I know it must be so hard because you have your toddlers and they need so much attention and care, I’m not a doctor but I can say I’ve been there and laying down and resting all the time is the only thing you can do to give this pregnancy a chance, even if you don’t go full term, try to keep it as long as you can.
XOXOXOOXOXO
ps: Check my blog and go to February 18th, it was my daughter 13th birthday and I wrote a post about my pregnancy and crazy delivery, well I know it’s in french but there’s pictures!
Thank you so much, Sissi. It really helps me feel better to read your story and hear the happy ending. Thank you for sharing with me!