A rough week
Was trying not to talk about it too much. I was trying to distract myself with fluffy positive posts about my daughter eating pancakes out of the trash. But really, this week has been a trying one for us (Jeremy in particular).
Jeremy has missed about two weeks of work from this whole bedrest ordeal. And that really hurts, in ways I can’t even tell you. Especially since we’re not exactly saving money these days– we’re spending it. In fact we’re spending $1200 more than we were spending last month. That’s a lot of money for us.
Anyeatingbeansandriceeveryday, we thought we had moved on to better days. Now that the kids were in school, Jeremy could work again. Last week was an adjustment for Jeremy– having to take 2 kids to 2 different schools before work, picking 2 kids up from 2 different schools after work, grocery shopping, errand running, coming home, feeding kids, baths, teeth, books, bed. CHAOS! Poor Jeremy. The poor guy was just thankful through all of that that he was able to WORK and make money for our family.
This Monday, Jeremy gets to work. Noah’s school calls and says he has a fever. Jeremy leaves work and gets Noah. They go to the doctor (yayy! another bill!?), Noah is feeling better by that evening, BAM, Bella has a 103 fever, is coughing and throwing up. Noah is all better but Jeremy misses work Tuesday because Bella is a in a really, really bad way. We talked about it and decided that Wednesday he HAS to go to work, so bedrest or no bedrest, she’s staying with me and I’m going to nurse her for the day. Wednesday morning comes, and? And? Stephanie wakes up bleeding again. After 16 days of no bleeding, it’s back. And it hurts. If I didn’t know any better I would think I was miscarrying because the cramps are so bad. Or, I guess it’s not a miscarriage in the 2nd trimester. It’s premature labor. And my head can’t even go there.
While I lie here and want to cry, I have a 4 year old who IS crying because she’s soooooo soooooo sick. I need to go to the emergency room because my doctor is out of town (again) but I can’t drag a sick little girl to the emergency room! And I refuse to let Jeremy leave work for this because there’s nothing we can do anyways. Ya know?
This too shall pass. Right? This is one teensy itty bitty segment in our lives. And one day we’ll look back on it and it won’t seem so big.
Pray for my sick baby girl, will you? For my tough little resilient baby too. And my sweet husband who is enduring it all…
Posted by: stepherz | 03-11-2009 | 03:03 PM
Posted in: A Broken Heart | A Broken Womb | Momma | Wife
Hugs and prayers and good thoughts all coming your way.
I am so sorry! What a big bunch of stuff going on with all of you! Jeremy is a trooper! He really is a keeper, Steph. What a great support. I hope he can get back to work with no hiccups in the coming weeks. I hope Miss Bella is better soon too.
Times like these I am glad for good neighbors who pitch in. Ian and I had the flu in September. The kind where you can’t move at all unless you are booking it to the toilet. I made a phone call and Liam was whisked away for the day so we could wallow in our pain. I am praying someone can help you like that in the remainder of your pregnancy.
This is hard and you may feel like you’ll never see the end of this dark tunnel but when you and Jeremy will be grand parents, you’ll have fond memories of this trying time, because this is life, it’s not always peach and cream (is that even a saying?).
If I lived closer, I would totally help you and baby sit for you!
Don’t you have a friend or a family member close by?
You all are in my thoughts. Jeremy is doing a Fantastic job. I hope Bella gets better soon. Try to take it easy.
Any update to the bleeding and cramps?
hugs and love honey