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Posted by: stepherz | 07-30-2009 | 11:07 PM
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Birthday Boy

(This is not a paid review)

Jeremy’s birthday is coming and he’s been wanting these Vibram Fivefinger Shoes for awhile. I ordered them for him yesterday (gosh I hope they fit). So excited that I may not be able to wait until the 27th to give them to him.

Aren’t they so ugly cool!?

Posted by: stepherz | 07-29-2009 | 02:07 PM
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Another L&D night

Ughh. I spent the night in the hospital AGAIN. I was watching Slumdog Millionaire (not sure why that is relative) and I got up to tinkle. When I got to the bathroom and peed, I saw blood. This time red blood, which alarmed me. Especially since Caleb had been pretty inactive yesterday and I was already worried about that.

Had an ultrasound and Caleb, water, placenta, everything looks great. My cervix is closed up like Gorilla Glue. No signs of dilation at all (weird being that this is my 4th pregnancy and I’ve had so many D&Cs). This fella is going to be like Bella, I think, and stay in there til the very end. Which is good because she was chubby cute at 40 weeks!

They monitored Caleb all night. This turned out to be MISERABLE. He’s trying to flip head down right now, so his head is behind my belly button and his feet are touching his noggin. Poor dude! Anyways, the bizarre position means that it’s hard to find his heart rate. And the monitors are sucky at the hospital. Basically I had to just hold the doppler on my belly and anytime I had to move, or Caleb moved, or a wind came, I’d have to reapply lube and find the heart beat again. So, somewhere around 1 am I started dozing off and would let go of the monitor. The nurse kept coming in all snippety, “I need you to tell me when you change positions so that I can readjust your monitor. I HAVE to watch his heartrate.” I was like, “Woman, it is completely unrealistic of you to assume that I’m going to be able to lie perfectly still with my hand on this monitor in the same position all night long.”

She also told me to drink some water before my ultrasound. I asked her if she had a cup and she said she’s bring it to me. She never did. So after 30 minutes or so, I get up to pee and while I’m up, I open the door to see if she’s at the desk. She’s sitting RIGHT THERE in front of my door, so I didn’t have to go far to find her. But this Bitch is going to tell me, “You don’t have to get out of bed, you have a nurse call button.” WTH? The doc didn’t tell me not to get out of bed, so what’s the big deal? If you brought the water I woulnd’t be asking for it!

If you’re a miserable asshole working as a nurse in L&D, of all places, then you need to change fields and become a librarian or something that is not too involved with people. L&D nurses get to witness too much life and love to be burnt out assholes.

Anyhow, the bleeding is coming from the cervix or from the hematoma (which may not be resolved but just too thin to see on ultrasound). No one knows but the doctor keeps telling me that he’s worried about me and won’t take any chances… Don’t worry about me, pray for Caleb…

So, I’m back home. No new directions or orders from the doctor. I guess it’s a waiting game now. I’ve loved this pregnancy and I hate to rush it along. But I can’t wait until I don’t have to worry about my body letting Caleb down. I want him in my arms where I can use all of my senses to love him and make sure he’s alright… Why don’t these bellies come with built in windows? Wouldn’t it be nice to look in there and make sure the baby is fine?

Just a couple more weeks…

Posted by: stepherz | 07-28-2009 | 04:07 AM
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My Sophia

I decided some time ago that I wanted to paint something that was mature– not the fru fru child fairy type painting I was used to doing. Something I could hang in my living room and not in the Children’s Museum (or stash under my bed).

I messed around with a few mediums over the years. Was never much good at sketching, drawing, molding, or similar. I like acrylic and oil. I love canvas. But I’d never tried watercolor and paper. So I gave it a try. And I think I kind of like it.

Here’s My Sophia… I think I’m done, but you know how that goes… She is 36×24. And I think I like her a little bit…

Posted by: stepherz | 07-26-2009 | 01:07 AM
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