It’s ALL Good….
I am having so much fun, y’all. I am. Life has this ebb and flow thing. Even when things are kind of tough– financially, child rearing wise, or whatever, life is still good to us. I’m so grateful for so many things– healthy babies, a beautiful home, being able to pay the bills, being able to feed our family… Someone has smiled upon us, not a moment goes by that I don’t know that.
Noah was having some behavioral stuff for the past couple of years. I never talked about it here because it’s one of those snooze topics. But there have been several points in my mothering of him that I’ve thought he was ADHD in a severe way. He is a BEAUTIFUL and AMAZING little person. But he’s given us a run forour money, for sure. I’m pleased though that over the last 3 months, Noah has done some changing. He really really has. It’s like night and day. His doctor told me she thought he was an “immature 3-year-old” and that really kind of summed it up for me. She was right. It sounds weird, how can a 3 year old be immature? Or how could he not be immatureat 3 years old. But what she was saying is that he’s just immature for the social level of a 3 year old. I’m so grateful that he’s starting to catch up. He’s a fun little guy!
Bella is amazing. She’s just amazing. She is the apple of my eye. She’s a chatty little thing, she’s got my kind of humor. And man, she’s so mature and smart and bright. She’s only got a few more months at home with me before she heads off to Kindergarten. Ohhh it breaks my heart. I’m going to miss her with my whole heart and soul. It’s bittersweet, you know?
Austin is my buddy. We’ve been hanging out A LOT lately and I love it. He’s just so fargin’ funny, I can’t stand it. He makes me roll. I adore him. He’s an amazing friend and such a good kid. He makes me so proud.
Caleb is growing something fierce! He’s eating some solids now and loves it. He’s in the 70th percentile for his age– almost 5 months. I’m proud to look at his rolls and fluff and, for the first time, know that my body solely fed this healthy sweet fellow. He’s my first baby that actually was a good nurser, once he got it figured out. I’m grateful for that because he is my last baby, I love the nursing bond, and it burns mad calories to boot. He’s a momma’s boy, he is such a lovable & happy baby, and he looks soooooooo much like Jeremy. It’s like having a pocket sized Jeremy– only fluffier and squishy and a little cuter. 
Jeremy is so amazing. What a man! He’s such a loving husband, so thoughtful and intuitive. I’m madly in love. Still. Always have been. I look at him and swoon. He had his cholesterol checked a few weeks ago and his levels came back high. So, we’ve been working together to get it down. It’s good for us because we’re making lifestyle changes and it trickles down to our kids. We’re all eating really well. And I can’t stand the thought of feeding him things that hurt his heart. It’s weird, I thought I could love him more through the foods I made. I never thought that all of my baked goodies and cheese dripping casseroles were hurting him. Now I’m having to come up with new ways to show love– not by making his favorite cookies but by making him eat his oatmeal every morning (he calls it “cruel gruel”). I love his heart. Gotta take care of him so I can still swoon over him for another 40+ years…
And Stepherz? Well, I’m losing weight. I’ve lost 14 pounds over the last month by eating healthy. I have 10 more to go to get back into my teeny jeans. I’m at 145 right now and feeling great. I just cut back on the bad stuff and I mean NO bad stuff– no more cheese, no cakes, minimal bread, no potatoes, only brown rice, no cereal, no sugar, fat free everything, and lots of lean meats and veggies. My biggest weakness was cereal before bed and now I eat nothing after 7 pm. I have a big, hot, delicious cup of English tea if I feel a little hungry at night. I eat oatmeal for breakfast too (although unlike Jeremy, I love it). I feel fantastic!I’m getting STOKED about my trip to NC. I’m sooooo soooo excited. I’m falling off the diet bandwagon for that week, I’m sure. But that’s alright. And lastly, I’m starting a modeling school in April. I’m so excited and preoccupied with it. I lie in bed at night thinking about advertisement pitches, slogans, the materials I need, how big to make my classes, where to hold the classes, finding a good photographer, writing the handbook and curriculum, doing the paperwork to get my certificate… It’s all coming together though, I’m almost done with my business plan and curriculum, and I’m finally losing enough weight to put my heels back on and practice my runway. SOOOO exciting! The truth is that I’ve dreamed of doing this for years. I never talked about it. Then the economy got so bad that I got discouraged, figured I’d be too old to do it by the time people have money to spend again. But then Jeremy, out of the blue, said “Steph, you could start your own modeling school and really make it successful.” My dream sprouted wings when he said that! It may have hiccups because of the economy, but I’m up for the challenge. I have the experience (long story there), LOVED working with teen aged girls when I previously Instructed, LOVE fashion. It’s perfect. I could wait until the economy gets better. But sometimes you have to grab it by the balls and make it happen.
Soooo, I have so much going on, so much positive energy, sooooo much to look forward to. Things in 2010 are looking good. I’m happy, I’m loved, I have this extraordinary family that puts wind in my sails. I have healed relationships with family, I have confidence, I have support. It’s good. It’s alllllll good.
Posted by: stepherz | 01-16-2010 | 05:01 AM
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